BEING CALLED

How much faith does it take to follow a calling?

This is what I am struggling with.

But I think more than that, I think I'm struggling in faith itself. God can open and close doors according to His will- and I'm fine with that. It is ultimately for His name. However, having the faith to differentiate between what is His will and mine- and then to trust that- is something completely different. I've long been a guy who habitually follows his gut feeling, for better or worse. And that isn't always a bad approach to making decisions, with the exception, of course, being outside God's will.

We've been presented with an opportunity that is truly God sent. Yet I am still apprehensive. Despite prayer and obvious actions to the affirmative, I still struggle with accepting real, tangible answers to those prayers. 

This is why I struggle in faith. I'm more concerned with being comfortable then being in His will. 

When Christ prayed in the garden for the Father to pass the cup from his hands, Jesus let his true feelings be known. 

"If there is any other way, Father! Any other way! Take this cup from me! I don't want to die!"

So often we disregard Jesus' humanity and forget he didn't want to die. He didn't want to suffer like He knew He would have to. He implored God the Father if there is any other way to let it be known.

"Nevertheless, not as I will, but as You will" (Matt 26:39).

He gave himself up to save us who are called despite His fear.

I need this to be my prayer. 

To His fame,

c.